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When John Prevost sails into his hometown on Cormorant Island, a short trip from northern Vancouver Island town of Port McNeill, a blank space in the streetscape where a four-storey brick building once loomed brings him joy.
91裸聊视频淎s soon as the ferry came into Alert Bay, there was the residential school and I91裸聊视频檇 always be angry inside.91裸聊视频�
Prevost, 62, is a survivor of St. Michael91裸聊视频檚 Indian Residential School.
The facility was built by the federal government in 1929 and was run by the Anglican church until it closed in 1975. But it loomed over the bay for nearly a century, becoming a dark reminder of colonial relations with Canada91裸聊视频檚 Aboriginal peoples.
When the Namgis Nation razed the building in 2015, demolition was marked with a healing ceremony attended by First Nations leaders, church leaders, politicians and former students.
Prevost was not there but he does remember the first time it didn91裸聊视频檛 loom over his arrival. He91裸聊视频檇 brought a couple of friends up. 91裸聊视频淲hen we came around the corner I was crying my eyes out 91裸聊视频� 91裸聊视频榣ook it91裸聊视频檚 not there91裸聊视频� 91裸聊视频� it made my heart lighter.91裸聊视频�
The space serves as a reminder, but much like that emptiness, his individual memories of the school and subsequent day schools, foster homes and group homes are shrouded in what he calls emotional blackout. Many memories are told to him. What he does remember is violence and alcohol abuse at home. Followed by abuse and violence at residential school, day school and foster care.
Prevost91裸聊视频檚 Saanich studio apartment is now his nest and safe place, but Alert Bay is home.
What he knows of his family and childhood is learned second- and third-hand, sometimes from family in Alert Bay or family found over decades in the prison system.
He does remember being drunk at five, then the police came and took the five youngest boys, separating them into schools and foster homes.
91裸聊视频淚 was in St. Mike91裸聊视频檚 on the fourth floor 91裸聊视频� just awful,91裸聊视频� Prevost recalled. It was two or three years of whipping, slapping and avoiding. A couple of his older brothers were there, and they looked after him as best they could. They advised him if someone said 91裸聊视频渃ome here91裸聊视频� you run.
91裸聊视频淚 did a lot of running.91裸聊视频�
Two or three years later, he was moved to Vancouver, further removed from his roots, into a life of foster and group homes. It wasn91裸聊视频檛 long after that he began his decades-long dance with incarceration.
By 11 or 12, Prevost recalled gathering the gumption to try and protect himself. For Prevost, foster home life included more slapping and being thrown down stairs. He reported the abuse to his social worker, telling the man they were beating him and not feeding him. The social worker believed the adults over the child.
91裸聊视频淎s soon as he left, boom, down the stairs,91裸聊视频� Prevost said. 91裸聊视频淭hat91裸聊视频檚 when I burnt their house down. I threw all this newspaper they had on their pool table and I lit it. I walked away, went back to my room, and I was hoping somebody would wake up so I wouldn91裸聊视频檛 die with them.91裸聊视频�
No one died in the fire.
Prevost got six months in a juvenille detention centre. 91裸聊视频淪ix months turned into a year. I became a part of the furniture in the prison system up to, I don91裸聊视频檛 know, 10 years ago.91裸聊视频�
Prevost felt safe there. He discovered additional ways to numb the pain of his past 91裸聊视频� cocaine and heroin among them. 91裸聊视频淎nything to keep me from not looking at myself.91裸聊视频�
Despite the haze of his growing addiction, he remembers a comfort in being surrounded by people like him 91裸聊视频� people who felt anger and rage at the system. It91裸聊视频檚 also where he met much of his family.
Removed from home at five he had to fight to return for his mother91裸聊视频檚 funeral when he was 11. At 16, the system shifted Prevost to adult court and he wound up at Oakalla Prison (closed in 1979) on the Lower Mainland and surprisingly enough, that91裸聊视频檚 where he ran into his brother Jeff. It91裸聊视频檚 also where a guard remembered his dad, thrown in jail for speaking his own language, Prevost recalled.
While incarcerated he learned about Alcoholics Anonymous. The first time, Prevost was a teen looking to get out of his cell for a bit. 91裸聊视频淚 went to a meeting and this old man was telling my story,91裸聊视频� he said. 91裸聊视频淲e all have similar stories in our disease.91裸聊视频�
Meetings also helped him get out early. While he wasn91裸聊视频檛 yet ready for healing, Prevost learned treatment existed and was an option 91裸聊视频� one he eventually pursued.
While he still bears the marks of intravenous drug use, it91裸聊视频檚 been 20 years since his last overdose. 91裸聊视频淚 shouldn91裸聊视频檛 be alive with all the addiction I went through.91裸聊视频� Of 17 siblings (two sisters died at birth), four brothers remain. The others are dead of addiction, Prevost said, none of them would take treatment because of the associated stigma.
He also turned to family about three decades ago when he started doing a lot of doodling. While in Alert Bay for treatment, and with a little trepidation, he showed the drawings to his cousins. They were impressed with his early attempts and offered him tips and gave him pieces of their own work with the advice of 91裸聊视频渃opy ours until you find yours.91裸聊视频�
91裸聊视频淪o I did, for two or three years I was copying theirs and all of a sudden I started seeing my own art,91裸聊视频� Prevost said. Decades later it remains a tool for healing 91裸聊视频� taming triggers that lurk every day.
Now an artist and a healer himself, Prevost has become a mainstay in places designed to help lift others. He91裸聊视频檚 an active volunteer at AVI Health and Community Services and Our Place Society, leading a healing circle and sharing his experience.
While his work adorns walls across the region, it91裸聊视频檚 just one approach to wellness. What has proved most helpful, and he looks forward to participating again, is a retreat for residential school survivors.
91裸聊视频淭he first one I did was overwhelming,91裸聊视频� Prevost admitted. 91裸聊视频淭hirty-five of us in total, we all had our armour on when we first went there. They showed us this room where we91裸聊视频檙e going to be doing our healing.91裸聊视频�
Three big buckets stood in the middle of the room. He learned later they were for the tissues for their tears.
91裸聊视频淩ight from the get-go, nonstop crying 91裸聊视频� nonstop cried our eyes out. It91裸聊视频檚 a good feeling,91裸聊视频� he said. 91裸聊视频淚t helped me go forward. 91裸聊视频淚f I didn91裸聊视频檛 do this treatment I91裸聊视频檇 be with my brothers or I91裸聊视频檇 be dead.91裸聊视频�
Happily settled into his Saanich nest for the last four years, Prevost91裸聊视频檚 walls are covered in art 91裸聊视频� his and others91裸聊视频� 91裸聊视频� and photos. One piece is a portrait created for him by a friend. Crafted of smaller images, residential school and other dark times dominate the bottom corner of the work, slowly lightening as it crosses the face stretching into brightness at the other far corner. It91裸聊视频檚 an image he uses to help explain residential schools to those who don91裸聊视频檛 understand. He started life in that dark corner and works every day to maintain the light.
This is part five in a special series prepared by Black Press Media. You can find more of the series and other articles on truth and reconciliation
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